Edry has been safely delivered two minutes shy of midnight on 19 June.

I know that all my babies are special. But Edry is by far the most unexpected surprise for me. Everything about him is a surprise. Starting with the unexpected news that I was almost 10 weeks pregnant with him when I found out. I didn’t plan on having anymore children, but God gave me another. I suppose He thinks I can handle another

Next comes the unexpected labour. Edry was suppose to be due in 23 more days, but he had other ideas.

And then, the biggest surprise of all. Edry has Down syndrome.

I didn’t know how to handle the news at first. I was told about his condition by my OB-GYN 20 minutes after giving birth. My reaction was, “It’s OK, he’s still my son.”

I went to my room to rest, and waited until my mom, sister, and sons left the room, leaving only my husband and I. I told him about Edry. After that, I didn’t want to think about the issue, I was getting my tubal ligation in 8 hours’ time. I needed to rest.

When I recovered from my anesthetics the next evening, the pediatrician has told my husband everything. Edry’s condition still hasn’t sunk in. So I started reading a little about Down syndrome. And my eyes got watery. 50 percent chance of heart and gut complications while he’s growing up. Brain complications, hearing problems, breathing issues. The pediatrician echoed all those things I’ve read on the Web that next morning. I was terrified. How am I going to raise him with all these health issues?? I was terrified for him, for my boys, for my husband. I suddenly felt inadequate. I don’t deserve to be Edry’s mom. I’m not strong enough.

It has been 15 days since we first welcome Edry into our world. I accept him for who he is, I think I always have since the second he existed within me. But I’m still learning. So many things left unknown. He’s currently a healthy baby. I pray to God he continues to be healthy.

In the mean time, this blog will not only be the voice of my kids, but also of me, and my journey with four very special boys and the most supporting and loving husband one could ever hope for.

Clearly, our lives have transformed. The Blog of Rugrats is on a new chapter. Join the ride, will you?