Tomorrow, Eric turns 11 months! And in another month, he’ll be one year old! Very soon, he won’t be a little baby anymore. *Sigh*….

Highlight of the day: He’s starting to learn how to climb up furniture these days. Yesterday, he climbed down our bedroom bed, and this morning he climbed up our living room chair. With ease. It’s scary. Now more than ever, I need to keep an eye on him and pray that I’ll be there to catch his fall :O

Thirty-two things that change when you have a baby | BabyCenter

When I read this article, a few points stood out for me and is very true of the change I felt when I entered motherhood:

1. Where you once believed you were fearless, you now find yourself afraid. Having a child means that you are no longer just responsible for yourself, but for someone else’s life. The actions you take now will have a direct influence on your little one. Knowing that makes me paranoid of life some times. I even have panic attacks when it comes to my children or any child for that matter.
2. You respect your parents and love them in a new way. You’ll never know the sacrifices a parent goes through until you go through parenthood itself. Pregnancy pains and giving birth is the least of your pain and worry.
3. Your heart breaks much more easily. This comes with my paranoia. When a baby cries, my brain goes into overdrive — “what’s going on with that baby?? why is he crying?? is he in pain?? who hurt him??” I cry easily now too, and it’s one of the changes in me that I absolutely hate, because now I tend to bawl my eyes off in the movie theaters… how embarrassing.
4. You look at your baby in the mirror instead of yourself. I mean, what is there to look at, when I have my better, beautiful angel faced kids to look at, even if they don’t act like angels.
5. You no longer rely on a clock — your baby now sets your schedule. Exactly.
   
6. You take the time for one more hug and kiss even if it means you’ll be late. Those extra few seconds or minutes can always make my whole day.
7. You learn that taking a shower is a luxury. I’d rather take a one or two-minute shower than risk hearing my kids wailing and looking for their ma-ma.
8. You find yourself wanting to make this world a better place.

Read the rest of the article and see if any other points ring true to you.

Highlight of the day: Eric seems to be conversing with me these past few days. This morning before going to the daycare centre, he looked at me with those big round eyes, moved his face closer to mine, and babbled with a peculiar tone of voice, as if trying to tell me something. It kind of took me by surprise. He emphasised certain babbles, and for a while seemed to be talking to me, then to himself. Then suddenly, he babled excitedly and squealed and giggled! It was so cute and funny!

I need to start with the packing soon for our trip to Kuala Lumpur early next month. As soon as my paycheck’s in, off to the baby store for me.

I’m planning on going back into the work force and be a full time working mom again. As much as I love staying at home, I terribly miss the social part of my work life. I’m eyeing for an IT post that I’ve recently interviewed for, and I hope to stick to this job until I retire. Back to my first love, hahah!

I’ll definitely miss being with the kids at home, no matter how hectic it is. That’s all I’ll miss, though. I won’t miss thinking 24/7 about house chores and the lack of private time I have for myself. For some reason, I feel that my life is more manageable when I was working full-time. At least I know that from 8a to 5p it’s uninterrupted work time, then the rest of the time it’s with the kids, then a little house work when they’re off to bed. When I’m at home, it really feels like it’s workids, workids, workids, pause to play with the kids, workids workids workids… you know the drill. I can handle the kids part, but not the house work part, and the lack of rest. If it weren’t for my little Eric helping me around the house, I don’t know how I’d survive at home sometimes.

Highlight of the day: I actually observed and seen him do this for a few days, but today it’s finally obvious — Eric has just learned how to clap his hands! To be honest, his hand position is right, but on the actual clapping, on his left hand was moving, and the other one stays still. Oh well, he’s still such a smart boy